infinitẽ.notion

don't just read
when you sneak
tis don't care if you'll speak
better you
think..think..think..
further and deep....
mind so curious....
hit!

for what is mine
is but stolen,
borrowed time.

.eiyah.

…incomplete, hallow 

Mas hinayaan mo ko masaktan.

Oras na mas kailangan kita sa lahat ng oras na kasama kita.
Mas mahalaga sa bawat segundo na hawak ang kamay para sa alalay.

Para mo ko pinatay sa pagbabalewala mo ng lagay ko.
Nasaan ang pagkakataon na pinaghirapan mong ayusin?
Nasaan ka kundi nagpapakasasa sa saya,
Habang ako namimilipit sa sakit, at sakit na paglapit sayo,
sa pag iyak at di malaman alin ang sakit na uunahin.

Mahal?
Kasinungalingan.

Sunday Morning 19102014 

Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.
Psalm 24:14

Today’s Verse…

If there is anything we don’t like to do, it’s wait. Maybe that is why God is so interested in us learning to do it! There is something purifying about remaining strong in tough times and remaining faithful when ill winds blow. So God gives us times of waiting to see if our search is really for him or merely for something new or easy.

My Prayer…

Loving Father, I know you have waited for me so many times — for me to show my faith, repent of my sins, grow in holiness, come to you in prayer, act more mature, give to those who cannot return my care… Help me as I wait for you to show me the way with my decisions, to act to relieve my need, and to reveal your presence in my loneliness. I really do seek you with all my heart. In Jesus’ name I pray.

Amen.

Promise. 

smile and laugh
there’s something always better
rest or sleep
take what is best for the moment
just right enough for the need

Lead me to where I should
Give me the hand to hold

.eiyah.

Regret that I woke up
Tears that smudges the make up
See none can cover up
How painful it all turns out
Take Me away now
Being beat up on
There’s no more to save for Life

The Only One
Is No where to be Found.

Naalala kita…
Masakit pala talaga…

Ikaw ang takbuhan ko mula non.
Kahit nandiyan mga kaibigan ko o sino man na makulit magtanong - ok lang ba ako?
Hindi kailangan lagi iba kausap.
Minsan sarili ko lang, sapat na para sa
madaming tanong. Madaming nasa loob. Nasa Isip. O sa mas madaming sakit.
Ikaw, sayo, dito malaya ako, emotera ako.
Hindi ko kailangan ng atensyon, o limos ng awa.
Ikaw tanggap mo ang ano man sabihin ko, malalim, mababaw o walang kwenta man.
Hirap ako.
Alam mo ilang beses ko na nilarawan sayo. Ang apat na sulok, taas baba ng
Slitang Hirap.
Pero parang tanga lang, wala ka naman magagawa kun iisipin.
Mali. Malaking tulong.
Ikaw na yata ang lahat ng buong saloobin ko na hindi hayag sa mundo.
Meron din masaya, nag uunapaw sa tuwa.
Pero alam ko bibilangan mo lang ako ng araw at maghahanda ka na para sa mas higit sa saya na kaya mong tanggapin.
Dahil alam mo ang takot ko - ang maging masaya.
Alam kong alam mo na sa isang iglap para ako nahold up at dadausdos na naman sa iyak.
Lahat ng ngiti o tawa sadya nilang hinahawi. Na para bang sentimo lang ang halaga para ihagis.

Panu bumangon?
Panu lumaban?
Panu hindi masaktan?
Sana naman malamanan ng masaya at payapa.
Panu sumulat ng walang hinagpis?
Nang walang pag tangis?

Great is this Suffering.

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